Tuesday, January 25, 2011
After a month of sch holidays, I'm once again back in sch, back in class.. it's a little diff this week coz shan isn't back yet, but at least I hav agnes for one module..
I'm quite pissed abt this 4010 grping coz of some of them.. pissed tat I'm abandoned coz I don't hav anyone defending me.. zzz.. shitty that johnny is nt studying the same thing as me..
It ain't fair when one is protected/defended coz ur bf is part of the gang n mine isn't.. quite fucked up if u ask me..
aiya.. quite pissed every time I talk abt this shit.. shall go concentrate in class.. bye..
blue @ 11:54 AM
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Thursday, January 20, 2011
it's been quite some time since I last blogged.. nw the holidays is abt to end and the new sch term will be starting nx week..
Seriously, I haven done anything this holiday except slack ard n do nothing.. unless u consider hibernation an activity, den I've done a lot of tat..
Since johnny started sch last week, we don't really hav a great deal of time together.. at least not as much as I want.. seriously, I don't understand myself a lot.. esp when it comes to my relationship..
Johnny n I hav been together for more den 6 yrs already.. it might nt mean v long to some, but it's seriously not a short period of time.. and the prob is I dun understand y we, well at least it's me, still need to spend so much time together.. it's like I can't have enuff of him.. I dun understand y some couples can jus meet once or twice a week and be enuff but tat I'd wan so many more days.. to me, it's like if we could jus co-habit, it'll make my life simpler and more comfortable.. coz at least tat way, I won't hav to feel bad abt nt being able to see him as much as I want..
I guess my thinking is a little crazy to some, coz I seem to be v clingy.. but that's jus how I am in this relationship.. I dun understand y, but I need him in my life jus like I need oxygen n food.. he's my life's pillar.. without him, I will fall apart..
I know I'm crazy by giving someone such control over me.. but I guess when u're so deeply in love, it's very hard to control ur own heart..
Anyway.. it's time for me to go off.. nitez.. will blog tml if I rmb.. :P
blue @ 2:48 AM
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