Thursday, January 26, 2006
muahahaha.. i found tis webby in a mail frm a fren.. it's frm manwei lah.. LOL..
aniway.. tis is real cute.. LOL.. go take a look.. really can make u luff.. haha..
http://satkuru.com/memoirs.htm
enjoy.. =p
blue @ 12:29 AM
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Wednesday, January 25, 2006
hm.. i did alot of shopping today.. LOL.. all for chinese new year..
eh.. mostly frm jp and a few frm northpoint... i got a dress, a 3/4 jacket n 2 lady tops.. LOL.. den i went to yishun to meet johnny.. n i bought 2 tank tops, 1 t-shirt n a pair of girly shoes.. LOL
seriously.. tis year i tink i'm quite crazy.. all the clothes are so ger tat i cant ever imagine myself wearing them.. but well.. i still bought them.. coz they actually look quite nice on me.. =p
oh.. did i mention sumting real impt.. hm.. i tink i didnt.. johnny lost our ring.. yapz.. well, he lost his last fri.. at east coast.. seriously.. it's quite heart breaking to kne tat.. coz.. well.. it's our first ring.. =(
but sumting he said made me real touched n i find the idea quite nice.. =p he said.. after we get married.. we could get a tattoo on our finger.. it'll be like a ring going round the finger which we'll be wearing our ring over.. he said tt in tat way, the ring will nv be lost.. n the tattoo will hav our names on it.. means my name on his finger n his on my finger.. but he also said tat i could pass on the idea coz it'll be pain n if i couldnt take it.. he doesnt mind tat he's the onli one having it..
after i heard him saying tat.. it really made me start tinking.. thinking abt our relationship.. i cant believe tat he's actually willing to get a tattoo coz of me.. i guess it might be the influence of the pple in camp.. but it's still a beri sweet ting.. coz if he really gets tat tattoo.. it's gonna be permanent.. it's real special..
well.. hm.. i dunno.. LOL.. zzz
i'm tired.. but my room is so messy all of a sudden.. bags here n there.. clothes all over my bed.. shoes on the floor.. LOL
i'm gonna slp after i arrange the stuffs..
nitez
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Monday, January 23, 2006
hi pple.. =p haven blog for some time le.. hehe
the weekend was nt bad.. johnny stayed at my place after dinner wif alvin n wenda at tian tian steamboat.. well.. the food there was okay.. nt tat great.. but nt bad lah.. =p
i really wished tat we could hav gone to hav a drink b4 we went back.. but well.. since everyone was so full.. we decided nt to go.. n johnny was all tired already so we went back.. we woke up at abt 12pm on sat.. well.. i tink it's the lastest time in his life he's ever woke up late.. LOL.. tat's my guess lah. coz i kept him in bed wif me.. he needed more rest than he himself realises it..
den we went to hav dinner wif my parents n aunt n uncle.. went back to jss tat area to eat.. it's a reastaurant at the old jurong town swimming pool.. yapz.. we like the food there.. it's like a thai restaurant.. but the food is nice.. $16.80+ per person.. n at least 4 persons for the eat all u can promotion.. yapz..
den sunday, i went to his place like every other sunday.. den we went to je.. makan den go library.. den went to jp to walk walk.. yapz.. n i bought a dress.. he said it's good.. nice on me.. lol.. well.. i needed to get more clothes for chinese new year.. n since i thought i looked okay as well.. i bought it.. yapz..
den went home lor.. haiz.. as usual, sunday means he gotta go back to camp.. yarlor.. tat's the end of the week.. =p
hope tat he'll hav night out tml.. if nt i believe tat i wouldnt be able to see him during the new year period.. coz he got guard duty on fri.. den sat morning will book out.. but sat night gotta eat reunion dinner.. so most prob wont meet.. den sunday is the first day of new year.. me sure busy wif my family n him wif church.. then mon n tues also wont be tt free.. n tues night he gotta go back to came le.. so.. it's like we dont hav much time to meet nx week.. =(
i'm nt so enthu abt the idea.. lol.. aniway.. i'm going off le.. hehe
need to shower.. =p
buaiz
blue @ 10:23 PM
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Friday, January 20, 2006
believe it or not.. i made a cheese cake jus for johnny.. LOL.. okie.. also for myself lah.. =p
i'm looking forward to waking up tml.. coz will be going to get my hair done tml.. more prob will be jus having treatment n mayb trimming alittle.. jus a little.. yapz.. den, i'll be heading to east coast park to meet johnny.. he'll be booking out frm east coast tml.. coz they hav sum company activity there.. yapz.. so i'll go there.. n good ting is he'll be having half day tml.. yeah.. i cant wait to see him.. seriously.. i miss him badly... extremely badly tis week.. mayb it's coz i couldnt see him on my b'day..
den we'll be having dinner wif alvin n wenda at tian tian steamboat.. hehe.. finally i can eat steamboat.. he promised to bring me for steamboat for a damn long time already.. finally it's gonna be done.. LOL..
well.. i'm quite tired nw.. but my cake isnt in the fridge yet.. hasnt really cooled so couldnt put it in.. gotta wait lor..
me go wash up first.. damn tired liaoz..
nitez.. =)
buaiz
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Wednesday, January 18, 2006
i've jus reached home.. =)
well.. i went shopping wif jasper today.. hehe.. yar, jus the 2 of us.. =p
first, we meet up at boon lay mrt to go to bbdc to register his basic theory test.. den he say he wanna go town, so i went wif him.. went to suntec.. walk here walk there.. he said he wanna get me a present.. den asking wat i hav in mind tat i wanna buy.. so i said a jacket.. den we walked all the adidas stores n nike stores tat we saw.. in the end.. i choose a adidas jacket.. a simple one.. but it's damn ex.. $99 n he bought it for me.. u kne wat he said.. he say he onli feeding himself.. it's okay.. yar.. den he also bought 2 adidas tee.. den, i bought 3 boxes of royce chocolate.. 2 for me n 1 for him.. hehe.. yar..
den we went for dinner.. the shop is "jus noodles".. i wont recommend the place to u.. coz it's nt tt nice.. n nothign special.. yar.. den we walked to bugis.. shopped a little there.. well.. jus walked ard.. den he bought his basic n advance theory books at kino..
den we walk walk walk.. den went back.. well.. nt back immediately.. we went to jp to walk ard.. yar.. but too bad all closing le.. ah.. n i saw miao.. i called out to her.. but she nv hear me.. LOL.. miao, i shouted ur name n u didnt bother to look at me.. =( LOL.. kidding onli.. but i really saw u.. u were working of coz.. LOL
den we went back.. of coz he nv send me home.. i'm nt his anione.. LOL.. but i had a good time today.. coz i got my first birthday present.. ah.. n thanks to manwei who msged me to say happy belated b'day.. =p n thanks to wenda n alvin, i got ur card le.. hehe.. thanks.. jus got it today.. =)
well.. thanks to all who remembers it.. thank u so much..
but i still haven had a b'day cake yet.. no cakes tis year.. so sad.. nw the cake will depend on johnny le.. hehe.. i wan a cake.. sumone tell him for me.. LOL.. kidding lah.. although i really wan a cake, but dun need to tell him.. if dun hav den forget it.. LOL
i'm tired after all the shopping n walking ard.. me go shower nw..
buaiz
blue @ 10:13 PM
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Tuesday, January 17, 2006
in less than an hour, my birthday will be over..
wat a 20th b'day.. nothing special.. nothing like a birthday.. no cakes no presents.. no bf to celebrate wif me.. no frens ard either..
well.. wat a b'day tis is.. zzz
aniway, i gotta say thank you to those who msged me tis morning.. n definitely nt forgeting those who said at 12.. thanks..
5.43am - johnny
7.14am - shiyin (again.. lol..)
8.28am - mum (cant believe she smsed.. lol)
8.37am - junying
9.13am - jacqueline
6.20pm - aaron
6.56pm - homan
11.11pm - bryan
well tt's all.. thanks pple.. =) thanks for remembering..
junying n shing, i tink u're right.. i'm getting more n more pessimistic n depressed.. mayb it's really coz i'm too bored le.. but well.. wat to do.. lol
aniway.. i tink i shd go dry my hair first.. i jus done showering.. LOL..
blue @ 11:06 PM
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Happy Birthday to ME!!!
well.. i'm 20 le.. zzz.. so fast.. LOL..
thanks to jasper who's the first to sms me on my b'day, den second is miao.. okie, siyi wished me b'day last last fri during band practice.. den is shing on my taggy board..
let's see who will rmb my b'day.. LOL..
hm.. plan for tml.. wake up at 10.30.. damn early for a pig like me.. den makan breakfast.. mayb cookies tat i made jus nw.. den.. go out to bank.. den go learn driving in the afternoon.. i guess i'll be coming home first after the lesson.. den i'll go out for dinner in the evening.. i'm nt so sure if he'll be having nights out tml.. he hasnt comfirmed yet.. but more prob will hav.. tt's wat i really pray for.. well.. at first it's decided tat we go eat tian tian steamboat at bugis.. den mum jus came in n told me tat we'll go to causeway point instead so johnny could join us for the dinner.. so i wont hav to nt be able to be wif my darling on my bday.. =)
still dunno yet.. muz see how.. muz comfirm wif him if he can make it tml or nt.. if cant den we'll go eat sumting better.. =p
oh.. u kne wat.. i'm smsing wif jasper nw.. n i'm smsing wif miao as well.. LOL.. chatting wif both.. aniway.. it's abt jasper.. wao.. u kne sumting.. he's so damn cool.. he's a commander in guard.. omg.. he's so damn cool.. LOL.. guards.. n commander.. wat the hell sia.. why is he so.. erm.. i dunno how to put it.. but it's jus so damn cool.. LOL
aniway.. i tink i shd go see how the cookies are nw.. LOL.. still baking nw.. yapz. but almost done le.. =p anione wanna try.. LOL.. my cookies are the best.. hahaha.. joking onli lah..
buaiz
blue @ 12:29 AM
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Monday, January 16, 2006
it's 16th jan.. i onli today left to enjoy being 19.. den i'll be 20..
OMG.. wat the hell.. i'm getting OLD.. i dun wanna be old.. 20.. omg.. 20 already.. so fast.. i cant believe it.. omg..
seriously, wat hav i done in my life tis 19 years.. omg.. 1 year in kindergarden, den 7 years in shuqun pri, the first year was P.Y which i forgot wat it meant.. mayb i dont even kne.. well.. doesnt matter... den 4 years in jurong sec.. 2 years in jjc.. half year working n half year slacking at home.. wat the hack did i achieve tis damn 19 years.. nothing.. seriously.. nothing.. OMG...
i onli managed to pass my freaking PSLE wif, erm.. B, A*, A n A.. i tink.. yar.. den 'O' lvl wif freaking L1R5 14pts.. den my hell worst results in 'A' lvl wif sucky D, E, C, B3, B4.. wat the hell happened to me in college man.. DAMN.. sumting freaking wrong happened to me.. wat kinda grades were tat??? omg.. i must hav been mad when i was taking my As.. shit me man...
nw wat the hell am i doing nw.. nothing.. NOTHING.. hell yes.. NOTHING.. bleah.. this is serious man.. wat the hell AM I DOING... omg.. tinking abt my past results.. shit me.. let me tink of the kinda lessons i took when i was younger.. learned art when i was damn young... learned longer than my bro did.. n his drawings were hell lot better than mine... learned piano for a hell lot of years.. the onli thing i could be proud of is that i get distinction for all the theory exams i took.. but hell, loads of pple get distinction for all their theory exam... and my practical was worst than shit.. failed my grade 5 exam.. shit man.. wanted to continue but in the end.. didnt continue animore, gav it up.. picked up guitar.. but gav up as soon as i started learning.. HELL.. oh.. when i was in pri sch.. i learned taekwando.. reached red belt which was 2 lvls before black belt.. den stopped at pri 6 coz my mum decided that i shd concentrate for my PSLE... den nv continued it..
was a freelance facilitator for a year in college yr 2.. den after graduation i became a useless sales person.. spent half a year doing tt job.. leant nothing much... well.. mayb i did learn stuffs.. aniway.. i've been slacking since.. mayb u could include learning driving as sumting tt i've been doing.. passed both my theory test at the first try, nothing to be proud of, coz alot of other pple pass them at their first try as well.. nv been to ani BBDC lessons b4.. coz i decided to learn private instead.. which also means tt i learned the driving theory frm the book without anione to help.. mayb my dad sumtimes lah.. will be having my 7th driving lesson on tuesday.. yah.. tuesday.. MY FREAKING BIRTHDAY...
seriously.. i dont kne if i shd be happy or not.. coz.. well.. 20 means i'm no longer a youth.. one more year to being a real adult... hell.. i dun wanna be 21 so soon.. argh..
alright.. tell u sumting.. mayb it's the real reason y i dont wanna hav my b'day.. well.. coz i wont be able to spend it wif johnny or anione else.. wat i mean by anione else is like my frenz.. seriously.. i wont forget the fun i had on my 18th b'day.. it felt so damn good.. surprises frm almost everyone.. well.. first was odac.. althought i got wet wif blue pastel colour at the end of the celebration, it was still real great.. n i had my dear orientation group kids.. they were the first to giv me roses in my entire life.. n the roses were blue as well.. real sweet of all of my frenz.. den it was my 19th b'day.. had a bbq at downtown east chalet.. had my odac frenz as well.. den i had several frenz frm class.. i could still remember tat alvin n shawn stayed wif us overnight at the chalet after the bbq was over.. i had fun.. really.. those where 2 great b'days.. coz i had lotsa frenz wif me.. mayb they were the best b'days i had so far.. well.. i'm sure they were the best.. yapz..
well.. my b'day will come in exactly 24 hours.. i cant believe it.. i cant believe tat i'm so nt excited abt it.. u kne wat.. mayb i wont hav a real celebration like i had the past 2 years.. i wont really be celebrating i guess.. the most will jus be a b'day dinner wif my family n tt's all.. tat'll be the end of my b'day... seriously, tt's nt aniwhere close to how i hope my b'day will be... for the least.. i hope tat i could hav johnny around.. having a b'day without the person u love so much is really a torture.. n i kne there wont be ani surprises frm him.. coz there cant be.. he wont be able to take leave on tuesday coz he's got live firing on tues n wed.. n i believe tat my dear odac frenz wont surprise me either coz they'll all be either studying, armying or working.. same to my classmates.. so well.. it'll jus be me n my family n a simple dinner out...
mayb i'm asking for too much.. coz being able to be wif my family is already a beri great ting.. but HELL.. mayb i'm jus asking for alot.. but WATEVER.. DAMN.. argh.. i'm once again starting to hate me, myself n i.. really.. i dunno wat the bloody hell is happening to me right nw.. i jus hate it.. i hate myself.. i hate wat's up my mind.. i hate wat i'm tinking.. i hate it.. i jus hate it.. argh
seriously.. i'm writing a damn freaking long essay again.. hell.. i haven written such a long ting in a damn long time.. LOL..
oh.. mayb it's coz the bloody 20 year old freaking damn idiotic ger will be going to poly if her application is accepted.. damn.. or mayb it's coz she cant wait to get accepted to nie either.. watever it is.. she's getting mad n crazy..
mayb i might jus get a mental breakdown.. mayb i jus shd n see wat happens to me after tt.. mayb tings might get right..
LOL... damn.. ignore me.. i'm really getting crazy n out of control.. i shall n muz stop here.. or there'll be a nv ending story.. LOL..
buaiz
blue @ 12:00 AM
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Wednesday, January 11, 2006
today is my 5th, erm.. no it's 6th driving lesson.. well.. i did lotsa U-turns on the main road today.. both wide turns n narrow turns.. yapz..
well.. it's still kinda scary.. dunno.. i kinda realised i'm nt really the driving type.. LOL.. although i can kinda drive smoothly nw.. but now n then, there'll still be mistakes here n there... yarlor.. i'm still quite nt sure abt driving.. LOL.. yapz.. i tink i'll need lots more of practices b4 i can go for my test..
hm.. i haven been doing muz this days except having driving lessons once a week.. other than tt, the other ting i do is to go dating wif johnny.. n nothing else.. really nothing else.. well.. mayb watching scv counts as someting..
oh, did i mention.. my house got scv liaoz.. yarlor.. bro subcribed to it.. nw i got alot of channels to watch.. means i got alot of cartoons n movies.. hehe.. also alot of taiwan shows.. hehe.. later got 1 show tat i wanna watch quite badly.. it's PIGLET'S BIG MOVIE.. haha.. well.. i'm nt watching it.. but recording it.. oh.. one other ting.. LOL.. nw my house also got DVD recorder.. got HDD tt kind.. LOL.. suddenly dont u tink my house going crazy? nw getting tings tat we wont buy last time.. dunno y nw getting so many stuffs.. oh.. summore, i tink my dad's getting a video cam as well.. LOL.. i tink my family has gone nuts.. LOL
well.. i tink i shd go change channel n see if the movie started n the recorder is recording the show.. =)
buaiz
blue @ 7:32 PM
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Monday, January 09, 2006
hiee.. =)
jus got home.. went to china town wif johnny in the afternoon.. jus walk walk abit.. den came back to jurong to hav dinner wif wenda n alvin.. yapz..
den we also got the dvds we asked wenda to help us get frm indo.. hehe.. =p
it's gonna be new year soon.. n i haven done much of the shoppings that i shd hav done.. no new clothes yet.. or i shd say, no suitable clothes for new year yet... dunno when den will hav time to go buy..
zzz.. i tink i blog later or sumting.. i need to go shower le.. =p
buaiz
blue @ 10:11 PM
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Monday, January 02, 2006
it's the second day of 2006.. n the third day coming..
here are some plans i hav for 2006.. yapz.. listen.. i do hav plans for myself.. so dun worry abt me as long as this stuffs get into action... my life will be back to normal again.. well.. i hope so.. LOL..
hm.. in febuary after the o lvl results are out, i'll be applying for np business studies.. it'll be direct admission.. means i'll go straight to year 2 if i get in.. n during abt march after the a lvl results are out, i'll apply for nie BSC(edu).. yapz.. it's gonna be the physical education.. means i'm gonna be a pe teacher if i can get in..
tt means, if i can get into np, i'll start schooling first.. den if my nie application is accepted as well.. i'll transfer to ntu.. yapz.. but on ting is, i'll hav to pay 1 sem of poly fees.. yapz.. tt'll be abt a thousand plus i tink.. aniway, bro said money wont be a problem if it's jus a thousand plus for my education.. coz it's more impt than money... i guess he's right..
hope i can start studying again tis year.. i really miss sch.. but i hav fear abt it as well.. coz.. i'm scared.. i'll start to socialise again... n i'm so afraid tt i've forgotten how to.. LOL.. yarlor.. i'm scared abt going into a new enviroment again.. hope miao will help me adapt in np if i get in ba.. =p
tt's all abt plans for the new year.. nt all the plans lah.. but the more impt plans.. yapz..
i'll be having my driving test in may.. den.. erm.. yarlor.. haha..
okie.. i tink i'll stop here abt the stuffs i hav for tis year...
pple.. y are all ur blogs dead? LOL.. except miaoz coz today got new update.. haha.. y u all so busy nt updating... =p i got nothing to read leh.. LOL
kidding..
i tink i go get ready to slp le.. coz i tink i'm falling sick again.. LOL.. today headache the whole day n i'm felling cold when my body is hot..
buaiz~
blue @ 11:34 PM
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Sunday, January 01, 2006
hi pple.. =) HAPPY NEW YEAR!!
i'm sorry tt i haven been blogging.. coz.. eh.. well.. was jus lazy lah.. den.. erm.. johnny's block leave started.. so i spent more time wif him lor.. well.. mayb it's the other way round...
he stayed at my place frm wed to sat.. means 4days 3nights.. one extremely idiotic ting tt happened on 31st itself really made me very very unhappy.. i was disappointed n everything.. we were supposed to go to vincent's bbq for the countdown.. kinda promised him le.. erm.. he's one of johnny's good brothers frm sec sch.. they're having a gathering lah.. den.. on sat morning.. his mum called.. arghed... insisted tat he has to be home tt night for dinner.. wat the hell.. argh.. i hate it.. den our entire plan was disrupted..
seriously.. i've wanted to meet his bros frm sec sch for a beri long time already.. n finally came this chance.. den it was destroyed by his mum.. i really cant stand it.. wat the.. argh..
he's 21 already.. n still his mum ties him up like a young boy.. wat sia.. i really cant stand it.. argh.. haiz.. it's nt a kid animore.. i'm so sure tat he can take good care of himself.. y does she hav to be so.. in control.. haiz... cant he jus hav a little more freedom abt his choice of being out.. or being where ever he wanted or who ever he's dating.. wat's her prob.. she'll hav to let him go sum day... he's gotta hav a family of his own... haiz..
forget it.. i kne i'm jus making too much noise.. coz mums will always wanna hav their kid wif them all the time.. forget it.. sumtimes i tink, he's so much like a mummy's boy when he isnt.. haiz.. i dunno wat the hell i'm talking abt lah.. but everytime as long as i tink abt it.. i really hate it...
seriouly, i wonder if i'm gonna hav a smooth relationship wif her after i'm married to his family.. i tink i wont be able to stand his mum's nagging n control..
forget it..
dun feel like talking animore...
buaiz...
but.. HAPPY NEW YEAR!!
blue @ 11:10 PM
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