Sunday, March 30, 2008
hehehe.. hm.. actually i've been wanting to blog.. but haven made the effort to sit down n type anithing.. but here i am.. to update..
hehe.. actually, i jus went for my DSTA scholarship on 27 mar last thurs.. well, it seems that i've passed that interview n i'm nw going on to the nx round.. it'll be nx friday, 4 apr.. it's gonna be a half day assessment which i'm dying to kne wat it's gonna be like.. so i'm waiting for alvin to get back frm his holiday trip n quickly tell me wat he went thru since he's gone to that interview b4..
seriously, i'm really putting high hopes on tis scholarship.. it's the onli one i've ever applied for n i hope tat i'll get it.. coz i'm quite interested in working there after graduation.. hm.. hope i get it ba. muz pray hard.. hehe..
aniway.. it's late.. haha.. i need to slp coz tml muz wake up by 6.. well it's nt tml animore.. it's tis morning.. so i better stop here.. i'll update again soon..
n alvin.. pls pls let me kne when u're back.. i need u to tell me wat's it all abt in the halfday assessment.. hehe.. thanks.. =p
blue @ 12:34 AM
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Wednesday, March 19, 2008
tml muz go church.. coz coming fri is good friday.. coz tml is last supper..
actually i didnt really thought i would be going.. quite lazy actually.. but in the end johnny say i shd go.. coz will giv e parents better impression.. actually i dun like it.. as in i dun like it tat everything tat i do muz be to impress his parents.. feels quite depressing.. coz it jus sounds as thou i'm nt good enuff for them..
aniway, actually johnny was wanting me to drive to church tml.. so at least after tat, i can drive home and he wont need to worry so much coz the time taken will be lesser.. den nw.. although dad has agreed to let me drive tml, i've decided nt to drive.. coz of my idiotic mum.. she keeps nagging.. complaining.. sometimes i really wonder y i mean so little to her.. y am i so useless in her eyes..
it's really like, if u dont even treat ur own daughter like a precious gem, who will.. u expect someone else to pamper ur own daugther for u?? wait long long also dun hav.. haiz.. yar yar.. i'm the useless one in the family.. the son is the precious one.. the one who's working hard, earning enough.. doing all the tings that they like.. but in the end.. he's not much better than i am.. as if he has a better attitude.. as if he does the housework for them.. he onli does it for himself.. n most of the time, i'm the one who does those work.. even if u ask him to do it.. in the end, i'll hav to do it for him..
it's really fucked up.. i really wonder y i mean so little to these pple.. am i really tat useless?? they onli see the bad side of me.. onli chooses to see wat they wanna see.. the lazy part of me.. zzz.. y am i here.. y the fuck am i living.. cant i jus die off.. no one will bother abt me aniway.. no one depends on me like the others.. i die also wont make ani diff to anione.. wat's the point of having me here in this fucking world when onli my negative points are seen n the good parts of me are nt.. i'm of no use to anione aniway.. no use in everyone's eyes..
zzz..
damn fucked up.. cry also no use.. feels more painful in the end.. zzz..
blue @ 10:15 PM
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Saturday, March 15, 2008
hm.. my parents will be back tml nite.. means tml will be my last day to use the car.. quite zzz actually.. but i dun really feel like driving to church tml.. lazy.. coz johnny has choir after his bible study.. will end quite late.. den even if i drive, i'll be going there alone n coming home alone.. quite bored..
oh.. today, johnny n i went to attend a workshop in church.. well, his parents were there also.. erm, it's actually a hand chimes workshop.. it's the first time i've ever touched n played hand chimes.. it's nice.. heeh.. i like the sound this instrument plays.. so beautiful.. so pure.. real nice.. aniway, we could choose to join the hand chimes group but coz johnny said tat his lessons end at 5.30pm on fridays, n the practice starts at 6, he might nt be able to attend it.. so in the end, we made the same reply.. said tat we're interested but might nt be able to attend each week's practice.. quite sianz actually, coz i interested n really wanna join..
ohoh.. btw, i got my results le.. haha.. tis sem gpa is 4 again.. but no distinction tis time.. all is jus A.. but i'm okay wif it lah.. =p
but one sad ting is i didnt get merit or anithing.. i tink i didnt get lah.. coz the result slip onli say "Passed and completed the diploma course".. so i really dunno.. aniway, my ave gpa is 3.9327.. hehe.. nt bad rite.. =p
haha.. zz.. quite sianz nw..
buaiz
blue @ 9:07 PM
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Wednesday, March 12, 2008
rmb me saying tat my parents went to thailand? well, they were back on monday nite.. but they left for hongkong/shenzhen again tis afternoon.. LOL
power rite.. haiz.. so good.. i also wanna go travel ard..
aniway, i've been driving the car ard the whole day.. at first i thought my dad would drive till the airport den i drive it off.. but in the end, i was the one driving the car there.. den after sending them.. we (me n johnny) went to suntec for the jap buffet... i tink we didnt eat as much as usual, but i was quite full already.. went shopping for a while after that.. den we drove to bugis.. went to simlim to get his printer ink.. den went shopping at OG n bugis itself.. bought a new pair of jeans, a pair of slippers, 3 new bras n a transformer toy for johnny.. haha.. quite shiok to go shopping.. coz johnny actually said tat he wont let me shop for 6 mths coz i hav too many clothes in my cabinet.. hehe..
aniway, after all our shopping n stuff.. we decided it's time to leave le.. coz he's gotta go church for his choir practice.. so i drove back frm bugis to his/our church.. i drove all the way into the church coz it's raining.. den when i was driving out (actually jus reversing n changing direction), i saw his dad n of coz, he saw me too.. LOL.. den i had to jus wave n kinda mouth the words bye.. den i drove off.. haha..
den i drove home alone lor.. zz.. quite sian tat i hav to drive home alone.. last sunday also like tat.. i believe coming sunday also the same.. coz he hav choir again.. sianz.. actually i wanted to drive on sat too.. but too bad bro driving.. so muz go church by bus.. haha.. but luckily johnny will be staying over again.. lesser chance of me overslping.. hehe
kk... i tink i shd stop.. coz i wanna go watch tv.. haha
buaiz
blue @ 9:00 PM
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Sunday, March 09, 2008
today, i drove to church.. but i didnt pick his family up.. i onli picked johnny up.. coz his dad drove the church's car/van (i dont kne which one) home.. so i wasnt needed.. but aniway, i was quite tired.. haha.. coz played facebook till quite late.. den lack of slp.. haha
driving was quite smooth when i went to church.. but when we were going for lunch, it started to rain.. n i'm nt good at driving in the rain coz i cant really see much.. aniway, me johnny n philip (his bro) went for lunch at imm.. we ate pepper lunch.. been quite some time since we ate tat.. i tried a new item, sum US beef steak.. seriously, i dont tink it's tat nice.. prefer the old pepper steak that they had.. but at least i kne how it taste, so i'll jus get back the usual if we're going back for it again..
went walking ard at imm after that.. bought my dinner.. sushi.. actually, nt really sushi lah.. jus handrolls and the 'fan-tuan'.. i dunno wat's it called in eng.. haha.. it's jus the triangle shape rice wrapped in seaweed.. been wanting to eat tat for quite some time already.. finally can eat it.. hehe.. there's nothing special abt it, but i jus felt like eating it.. den after that, i sent the brothers home n drove myself home alone.. zzz.. quite sianz.. coz i dun really like to drive alone.. but sumtimes, it's so much nicer to be alone in the car coz there wont be anione ard to giv u pressure.. u can jus enjoy the music n pay more attension to the road tat wat the other person is talking abt..
aniway, tml my parents will be back frm thailand.. gotta go fetch them at night.. tink their plane will arrive at 10.45pm ba.. so means nt much slp tml nite le.. haha
kk.. i shd go off le.. was watching tv.. hehe..
buaiz
blue @ 9:22 PM
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Saturday, March 08, 2008
hm.. my parents jus went to thailand last nite.. i kinda sent them there.. although it's my dad who drove the car to the airport.. LOL..
but aniway, the main ting was if i didnt send them, they'd hav to take bus/train there.. so i jus said, y nt i send u all, den i drive the car back, since i'm supposed to send them to the airport again on wed morning coz they going hongkong.. LOL..
my parents beri good hor.. going thailand, den come back work one day, den go hongkong again.. how i wish i can go for such long holiday..
aniway, tml is sunday.. means gotta go church.. but since my parents nt in singapore, n bro nt using the car in the morning tml, i'll be driving to church.. hee.. n i will be fetching johnny n his family too.. LOL.. quite stressed actually, coz i nv had so many pple in my car b4.. well, actually i had.. but it's family members, so nt so stressed.. nw is johnny's family.. i muz impress his parents so i muz do well.. aha..
the reason i'm nt aslp yet is coz i'm waiting for johnny's call.. he's having his meeting nw.. i tink lah.. coz he's supposed to tell his parents tat i'm gonna fetch them tml.. n the reason i'm waiting is coz i wanna kne first handed b4 i fetch them tml how his parents reacted abt me fetching them.. hehe.. quite anxious.. haha.. nervous..
hm.. let's pray for the best.. haha.. =p
blue @ 11:44 PM
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