Friday, November 26, 2010
finally.. the assignments and report due today will all soon be submitted.. and I can finally relax a little bit..
however, I still have one huge presentation on Monday and another report that will be due soon.. seriously, this sem is crazy.. so many things to do and so little time.. worst of all is I haven even done much of my fyp.. haiz..
anyway, me nw printing the stuffs that are to be submitted.. so, I shall go off first.. =P
blue @ 10:43 AM
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Wednesday, November 24, 2010
I feel so freaking tired.. I wanna sl.. bad sadly, I can't.. coz I still hav a lot of things to do..
according to wat I have planned jus nw before choir started.. my first task today is to get the things I wanna show my fyp prof done.. so kinda like get the timeline n stuffs.. den mayb a draft, very draft version of my questionnaire.. I hope I can accomplish those fast.. den I'll need to at least get the first part of my robotics qn 6.7 done..
I am so tired.. really feel like jus fucking it n go slp.. but I can't..
you might think tat I shd start doing those things nw, but the thing is tat I'm not home yet.. I'm still on the bus.. choir ended nv very long ago..
I hope I won't die halfway when I'm doing my stuffs.. so so tired.. haiz..
blue @ 10:04 PM
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hiyo.. hehe.. I'm blogging with my phone nw.. coz I jus downloaded the app for my phone.. finally found the app that I was looking for..
things kinda got worst since I last blogged.. nw besides all the things.due on Friday, I've gotta prepare stuffs for my fyp prof.. he actually requested tat I meet him tml at 4.30pm.. but coz of other things, we rescheduled it to Thursday..
I'm so not sure wat I shd prepare for him.. quite screwed actually.. zzz..
It's getting late n I feel like sleeping.. so I shall end here..
nitez
blue @ 12:28 AM
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Tuesday, November 23, 2010
11 days since i last blogged.. hahaha.. not tat i'm getting lazy again, but i was actively blogging the previous time was coz, as i mentioned, i downloaded the app to my phone.. but since johnny n i keep romming our phones, everything gets deleted and everything needs to be re-downloaded n re-installed.. so i was lazy n i didnt download it.. =p
so, tat's the reason for me not blogging for the past week plus..
aniway, this week is quite a crazy week.. 2 assignments and 1 report is due on this friday.. nx monday i have a huge presentation tat if i screw, i will fail that module.. and i still have another report for another project tat i dont know the due date.. and also the fyp report due in 30 dec..
wanna die le.. so damn busy.. but the horrible ting of it all is that i seriously have no mood to study or work at all.. it's like getting worst everyday..
i so feel like quiting sch.. but i know i cant coz it's already the 2nd last sem.. in half a year i'll be graduating.. in 6 short months, i'll no longer be a student.. but sometimes, i dun even feel like waiting for that 6 months.. when u get tired, u jus wanna give up n let urself have a break..
n i kinda wan a break right nw.. jus v v sick and tired of sch.. or all the assignments and projects.. of all the quizzes and tests and exams.. and also the hellish presentations tat i'm horrible with..
sometimes, when u're not a good presenter, u jus aint.. although it's said tat practice n rehearse will make u better, but still.. u jus cant lah.. zzz.. and i jus cant.. damn sick n tired of having to be so damn nervous every time.. haiz..
dunno lah.. i feel like sleeping le..
blue @ 1:06 AM
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Thursday, November 11, 2010
for the past 2 nights, I've been sleeping in my room wif aircon n johnny beside.. tonite, I hav neither.. reason is coz my mum n bro went to genting.. well, mainly is coz my mum wasn't ard..
although my dad didn't go with them, him nt being ard at home most of the time allowed me to hav much greater freedom in enjoying the aircon.. but nw, since everyone is back home, I can't turn on the aircon as and when I like it.. esp since the weather is not hot to the extent of being unbearable..
other thing is tat johnny has gone back home.. it's nt as if we're cohabiting or anything.. seriously, how I wish tat we are.. tat will giv us much more time to be together.. but the bad thing will be tat we won't be able to do much homework with each other ard.. johnny has always been saying tat I'm a huge distraction.. n when I'm ard, he has a hard time concentrating..
but nw without him ard, it's hard for me to try to slp.. coz when u spend so much time with one person, u get very used to his presence.. n without him, things jus ain't right.. n it seems tat with him ard, I can fall aslp faster..
guess I jus hav to try my best to slp.. coz obviously he's already sleeping in his own bed.. his lessons start at 8.30 tml n I hav more time to waste coz mine starts at 1.30..
kk lah.. I shd log off frm my phone le.. apparently this app is making me blog more often than I used to.. wonder if I'll start blogging as much as I used to or nt..
we shall see.. =P
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blue @ 1:29 AM
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Wednesday, November 10, 2010
刚到手的时候疼人家到骨子里去,每天给她打十几个电话,发几十条信息,她说什么你都铭记在心,想吃什么、想买什么、想去哪里你都会尽全力去满足,温柔体贴无微不至,巴不得二十四个小时都能跟她呆在一起;一开始总是包容的,就算她的生活习惯与你不同也会努力的调试配合,一切一切都是美好的...
久了,腻了!每天别说几十个电话,就连1个电话都懒得打,打电话时只说具体情况,把那些觉得无关要紧的“情趣”话都省了;信息就更不用说了,她发10条你回有一半你就觉得你回的已经够多了,就连她打电话给你你都觉得她啰嗦!
你不会再为她想吃早点而早早起床,你不会再为她排队买她想要东西,你不会专门请假带她去她想去的地方,你会觉得她什么事都依赖着你,让你觉得她麻烦事特多!
接着你会发现她的缺点越来越多,她的优点快被她的缺点掩盖,你快忍无可忍!
最后,厌了!潇洒的用“分手吧!”一句简单的言语结束了复杂的感情;或耗着等着,直到有一天她受不了忽冷忽热或若即若离的态度自己选择离开,你还可以说是她自己离你而去,你没有负心...
男人,你记不记得你曾经说过:“我永远都会对你这么好,一辈子都这样爱着你宠着你!” 不是她麻烦事特多,是你一开始就说得做得太到位,才会让她依赖上你!
你记不记得你曾经说过:“不管多晚,睡不着都可以打电话给我,我的手机24小时都为你开机!” 那你又嫌她不体贴,白天工作的时候打电话打扰到你,辛苦了一天晚上要睡觉了她还缠着你不肯挂线。是谁让她养成何时何地想打电话给你就打电话给你的习惯?
她无理取闹 那是因为从某一个时间段你的态度变了,你开始冷落她了;让她觉得没了安全感,由使她起疑心!不是她不信任你,不给你空间,而是她爱你,在乎你,用尽所有时间去关心你,你的生活细微改变都牵扯着她的情绪!
她脾气不好 那是因为她有很多时候知道了很多事情,但你不说,她都选择沉默,在一直沉默;积压到一定的时间她们就会爆发心中的所有怨气;要知道,这一些都不是她脾气不好,是你不够细心发觉,她们是一直积压下来的!
她不再跟以前一样动人 当初是谁说不喜欢她每天变化多端像只花蝴蝶,是谁说喜欢她素颜的清纯模样?虽说喜新厌旧是人性,除了毛主席跟古董以外,什么东西看久了都会审美疲劳;但她不是东西,她是个活生生有着感情的人! 你不再给她答案,不再给她承诺,不希望你以后做不到让这些答案跟承诺变成谎言 那你以前又给她那么多答案,给她那么多承诺,现在为自己铺好后路可以前承诺过的叫她怎么忘记?女人不怕诺言没实现,怕的是你承诺了又不去实现,最后实不实现是另一个问题! 你忙,你没时间没精力讨好她,你不知道她现在在想什么? 那你以前不忙吗?你以前是不是就把全部时间用来讨好她而不用工作?那你以前怎么都那么细心观察她在想什么? 你觉得你们不配
,你不想她再浪费感情在这段没结果的爱情上 那你一开始追她干嘛?做实验啊?她都已经浪费这么多感情了,你当感情是水龙头啊,说开就开说关就关!
对,这一切都是你给自己找的借口!别以为换个女朋友就可以永远摆脱那种感情暗淡时期,因为不久的将来你还是得回到这种时光,下个女朋友也是,下下个女朋友也是,下下下个女朋友也是,有种你一辈子不谈恋爱不结婚...
男人们,看完了回想一下你们的那段美好时光,趁现在没有人偷偷想想是不是你们给自己找借口了?那个以前深爱的女人现在就那么不值得你爱了么?别说你瞎了狗眼以前才会跟她在一起,因为你没瞎,也请不要侮辱到狗!
后悔分手的赶快努力从新追回来,以后用心经营着共有的感情!其实女人要的很简单,只想要一个爱自己男人就够了...
想要分手的考虑清楚,并不是每段感情都可以挽回的!考虑太久也不行,因为她们可以忍耐你冷落她一段时间,但不会一辈子傻下去;她们再怎么傻,也会给自己一个时间段,去忍受你的冷落,去相信你的爱;但时间一到,她们会毫不犹豫的离开,到那时再多的甜言蜜语都没有用了,因为这世界上没有谁离开谁就活不了!
恋爱中的,好好珍惜现在那个愿意照顾你,体谅你,愿意陪你承担风雨的傻女人吧!过了这个村,或许就没这个店了... 到时间结婚的就结婚吧,不要再拖拖拉拉婆婆妈妈;结婚证一领就像买了保险,至少心里都有底了...
爱情,就像煮粥!滚烫的时候加点配料它就是够火候又有滋有味的;等到忘记关火煮焦了的时候,你闻都不想闻它甚至你连锅都想把它扔了...
看好你的火吧!!!
blue @ 10:28 AM
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Tuesday, November 09, 2010
it's been quite some time since I've last worn mini skirt.. as in those tat I used to wear mayb a yr or 2 ago.. haha..
miss wearing them actually.. coz they show off my long legs.. haha.. but obviously these long legs have gone fat..
I guess it's almost time tat I start skimming down.. but always, I keep saying but I nv start doing it.. wanted to start gyming at the beginning of this sem.. but this sem is almost ending already n I haven even found the exact location of the gym tat I wanted to go.. zzz.. I'm power ain't I.. LOL
anyway, I'm outside nw n it seems to me tat blogging seems more fun than simply updating my status on Facebook.. haha.. oh oh.. I'm gonna share an article that s fren has shown me.. it's worth reading.. =P
kk, me go find that passage nw..
blue @ 3:22 PM
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Monday, November 08, 2010
I guess having this app is useful when I wanna blog in sch wif my phone..
I'm so sian.. nw we're here supposed to discuss abt the report tat we need to write.. but nw it seems like it's me n her to do it.. I'm dying le.. so tired..
I dun feel like working anymore.. so tired.. so many tasks left.. haiz.. I feel damn sick n tired le.. haiz..
keep seeing them sweet sweet in class.. damn sian.. I wanna sweet sweet also.. but my baby doesn't giv me tat kinda sweet.. haiz..
dunno lah.. damn tired le..
blue @ 11:07 AM
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I'm trying out Blogger-droid on my phone.. wonder how well this works.. hope this can be published.. haha..
anyway, its been forever since I last blogged.. dunno y.. I've always got a lot to say but I nv get ard to saying it.. so I guess mayb with this new app here I might be blogging more..
anyways, my mum n bro will be going to genting again tml morning.. meaning the nx few days I'll be on my own for dinner.. guess its good coz I get to use it as an excuse to get johnny to keep me company..
currently, I'm in a v insecure state.. I hav no idea y.. but tat is jus how I keep feeling..
although I kne tat he loves me a lot and that he is a real great bf.. but sometimes, I jus dun feel secure.. usually this happens when I see other couples in the extremely sweet mode.. like in Facebook where couples upload their lovey dovy photos.. or those extremely sweet stuffs, it makes me feel tat johnny n me are no longer tat sweet.. or even make me wonder if I'm worth his effort to be sweet and romantic.. haiz..
I dunno y I'm so unsatisfied.. I shd be satisfied with the goodness tat I hav, but I'm not.. I keep seeing other pples' good, n not see my own.. seriously, its nt tat I don't see my own.. I so know tat johnny is wonderful.. but I jus wish tat he can be more romantic.. like once a month, bring me out to somewhere nice.. somewhere where I need to dress up n look good.. or if tat is too much, at least once a year for our anniversary..
but I've nv had tat before.. the only time I need to 'dress up' is for church.. so tat the aunties can see tat I can be a ger.. argh.. why..
every time I think of this, I jus can't control my tears.. pple think tat we're v sweet.. tat we get to see each other more than half of the week.. but they nv understand tat we're meeting nt coz we're going dating.. but rather to spend time worshiping God in church and with many other pple.. It's more like I'm dating Christ than dating him..
I feel so dead these days.. so sick of the unsatisfied feeling.. the somewhat empty feeling.. sick of going to sch.. sick of facing the many pple.. and most of all, sick is the wait.. since the beginning, it's been a long n tiring wait..
I'm so afraid tat I'll jus giv up halfway coz I no longer hav the energy to hang on.. I am jus so tired..
blue @ 1:22 AM
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