Wednesday, December 27, 2006
hav u ever been pissed of by ur sibling? how bad did it get? wanted ever to kill him/her jus coz of the things they said or did to u..
well.. it happens all the time to me.. at least it's wat i'm feeling right nw.. pissed off.. damn damn pissed off.. well.. of coz it's by my bro.. did i ever mention tat he's always on my nerves.. well.. mayb nt always.. but almost.. yapz.. almost always..
he's jus a jerk at times.. a freaking jerk for all i care.. argh.. damn.. i'm jus too damn pissed to mention abt it.. forget it.. argh...
aniway, i've gotta go back to sch tml for sum IA shit.. n we actually planned to play football.. but looking at the weather.. i dont think i'll be playing.. coz it's been raining for more than 24 hours already.. n i bet it's gonna continue raining.. so the field will definitely be soaking wet.. therefore, i've decided nt to dirty myself wif mud n skip the game.. hee.. although i quite miss it.. coz haven played for 2 weeks already.. i miss the running n catching.. i like the game.. even more than i did for squash.. hee.. yapz.. it's nice.. n it's rough.. i like rough games.. =p
guess i better go to slp.. nite nitez
blue @ 12:35 AM
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Monday, December 25, 2006
in abt 15 mins, christmas will be over..
there's seriously nothing special abt christmas tis year for me.. except tat we had a gift exchange at houston's place on friday.. n a christmas dinner at my place wif my family today..
it's a disappointing christmas for me.. coz a very important promise was broken.. he didnt do as he said he will.. rmb me saying he promised to finally bring me to his church for the christmas celebration.. n how he guaranteed that he would.. well.. he didnt.. nt tat he went there himself.. he stayed at home wif me..
the celebration at his church tis year was on saturaday nite.. we stayed at home.. he didnt even rmb abt having to tell me abt it until i asked on mon/tues.. den the thing he said was.. "oh, i forgot.. let me tink abt it n plan.." den in the end, tis was it.. we didnt go..
can he understand how heartbroken i felt.. how cheated n disappointed i felt.. 2 n a half years together.. he's been pushing back n delaying the moment.. he's been promising n breaking his promise abt it over n over again.. sumtimes i really wonder y i believe in his promises abt these things.. he keeps saying tat i shdnt giv him pressure.. tat he wants to bring me home too.. but it aint time yet.. tat he wants to find the best possible time to bring me home.. den sumtimes i really feel like telling him to stop giving empty promises.. nt to bring my hopes to heaven n den making me feel like a trip down to hell..
i've been 'bullying' him like he said for the past week by bringing up the topic of his ex n abt the trip to church.. i jus it's jus coz i'm feeling very very insecure.. extremely insecure to be honest.. i really dunno wat to say.. zzz..
i'm sorry to be spoiling anione's mood by writing all tis when it's still christmas.. but i'm real depressed..
blue @ 11:45 PM
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MERRY CHRISTMAS EVERYONE!!!
blue @ 12:00 AM
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Monday, December 04, 2006
tis is a story in an email tat i received frm a fren.. n i seriously think it's very meaningful.. many of u might hav read it b4.. but i jus tis i shd share it to those how nv received it frm ani of ur frenz.. =)
There was a blind girl who hated herself just because she's blind.
She hated everyone, except her loving boyfriend. He's always there for her.
She said that if she could only see the world, she would marry her boyfriend.
One day, someone donated a pair of eyes to her and then she can see everything, including her boyfriend.
Her boyfriend asked her, "now that you can see the world, will you marry me?" The girl was shocked when she saw that her boyfriend is blind too, and refused to marry him.
Her boyfriend walked away in tears, and later wrote a letter to her saying. "Just take care of my eyes dear."
This is how human brain changes when the status changed.
Only few remember what life was before, and who's always been there even in the most painful situations.
Life Is A Gift
Today before you think of saying an unkind word - Think of someone who can't speak.
Before you complain about the taste of your food - Think of someone who has nothing to eat.
Before you complain about your husband or wife - Think of someone who's crying out to God for a companion.
Today before you complain about life - Think of someone who went too early to heaven.
Before you complain about your children - Think of someone who desires children but they're barren.
Before you argue about your dirty house, someone didn't clean or sweep - Think of the people who are living in the streets.
Before whining about the distance you drive - Think of someone who walks the same distance with their feet.
And when you are tired and complain about your job - Think of the unemployed, the disabled and those who wished they had your job.
But before you think of pointing the finger or condemning another - Remember that not one of us are without sin and we all answer to one maker.
And when depressing thoughts seem to get you down - Put a smile on your face and thank God you're alive and still around.
Life is a gift, Live it, Enjoy it, Celebrate it, And fulfill it.
blue @ 10:06 PM
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