Sunday, October 30, 2005
well.. it's a day for me without johnny ard.. i usually dun have to spend sundays without him ard.. yapz.. n today is one of the few sundays tt he's stuck in camp for sum stupid training tt he has..
it's live firing for him today... n he's been out since 5 tis morning.. as in out frm his camp lah.. yapz.. den he'll onli be back at abt 2am tonite.. which means he wont be able to slp.. coz they'll hav to clean their rifles n everything.. but the good thing is tat once they're done in the morning, they'll be able to book out already.. n it'll be his block leave.. YEAH.. haha
yapz.. but too bad during this block leave of his, he wont be staying over at my place.. but i guess it's still okay.. coz he's gotta spend sum time wif his family.. n he couldnt hav all his time wif me.. but i'm still very happy.. yapz.. coz i'll be having a week wif him.. n we'll definitely hav a great time together.. i hope.. lol..
aniway.. i've jus complete reading a book again.. borrowed it frm the library a few days again.. den i'm left wif one more.. yapz.. but i guess i wont hav much time to read it when johnny's gonna be wif me.. yapz.. i wont be wasting my time wif him reading.. hehe.. yapz.. =p
i tink i wanna go watch tv le.. hehe.. buaiz
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hahaha.. congrat me congrat me.. =p
coz i got my new monitor finally.. yapz... it's really finally.. erm.. it's LG de.. Flatron L1740PG.. yapz.. jus started using.. but it feels so go to finally be able to see the normal colour.. haha.. i've been seeing a yellow screen for months already.. =p
hm.. yapz... i'm jus here to share my excitment.. LOL.. me going le.. as in.. gotta continue packing the place.. yapz..
buaiz
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Saturday, October 29, 2005
i didnt hav time to update on thursday abt my final theory test.. yapz.. as i mentioned b4, i was supposed to take my advanced theory of driving test on thursday.. yapz.. n i passed it.. hehe.. yar.. i passed.. i'm happy.. hehe..
den i've kinda decided tat i'll start learning how to drive after i come back frm my trip to taiwan.. yar.. i'm learning it private.. nt frm bbdc.. haha.. yapz.. nt tt the sch nt good.. seriously.. private is nt good.. when learning theory lah.. coz during the practice.. we onli hav one book instead of 11 books.. n there's no explaination for the answers.. whereas for those students of the center.. they get more privilage.. yapz.. LOL.. aniway, i passed.. so.. it's okay.. haha
oh... today.. i went for an injection.. eh.. it's for common flu de.. yapz.. coz will be going to taiwan nx nx week.. so it's impt to get the injection to be safe.. LOL.. nw.. my arm is so numb.. feeling so tired.. haha.. it's like tt de.. but.. sianz.. i dun like it.. it's jus like i'm handicap again.. yarlor.. coz my finger jus recovered ytd.. den nw.. my arm handicap.. so stupid.. haha..
later still muz go to aunt's house.. coz.. got birthday "party" to attend.. family gathering again lor.. tiring..
i tink i better go rest awhile..
buaiz
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Tuesday, October 25, 2005
wat a dumb thing i jus did to myself..
okay, i was peeling garlics for the soup i'm boiling tonite.. it's bak kut teh.. yapz.. so garlic is definitely.. well.. i cut my figure.. tt's wat i did.. dumb me.. n it's bleeding like dunno wat.. cant believe i'm so careless..
aniway, i got finger plastered already.. n i tink it's stopped bleeding already.. yapz.. it has stopped.. i changed the plaster already.. nothing better to do.. lol..
nt really nothing better to do... i've been reading n studying the advance theory.. damn it's had.. lol.. esp when u hav to learn it all by urself.. yapz.. i didnt sign up as a student at the driving centre.. i jus took private instead n goes there got tests onli.. it's much cheaper like tt.. i tink.. LOL..
yar.. i dying already.. nvm.. LOL
me go rest awhile den continue reading le.. buaiz
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Monday, October 24, 2005
well.. i'm tinking nw.. hm..
i dunno.. lol.. too many thoughts up my head n i cant think of how to type them out.. so not organised..
aniway.. i'm jus tinking relationships lah.. thinking abt miao n zaw, meijing n freddy.. seems like those whom i kne are in love are all seriously in love n it's a lifetime commitment.. wao.. dont u tink it's cool? i mean.. we're all 19 yr old gers.. although our bfs might be of diff ages.. like 19, 21, 30.. but.. seems like we've all found the guy.. it's great to see meijing n freddy going strong.. den miao n zaw.. although he's out at sea.. dunno where nw n will onli be back 9 mths later.. but miao is.. erm.. i tink she's nv been so serious n devoted to a single guy.. nt saying tt she's flirt or wat.. is jus.. hm.. miao has really grown up.. she knes tt he's her true love n finally has tt kinda tinking abt having a future together.. or mayb she did before but i jus dunno.. lol.. but i tink she's real serious tis time.. lol
hm.. i dunno.. seem so nice.. finding the right person of ur life.. yapz.. it's great.. yapz..
last night, my aunt n uncle came over to hav dinner together... den suddenly we were talking abt my bro's gf n my bf.. suddenly asking abt their surnames n stuff.. den as u kne johnny n i hav the same surname.. as in in chinese.. it's both the same word.. yapz.. den my aunt say.. oh it's nvm de lah.. there's so many pple out there wif the same surname.. pple having the same surname wif us is all over the place.. den i was tinking.. lol.. i nv thought his or my surname will be a problem for us.. haha.. den she suddenly ask my bro.. is she the ONE.. the fixed one n final one whom u'll be getting married wif.. den my bro was like.. yar.. den she turned to me.. wat abt u.. den i was like.. lol.. me? of coz.. haha.. he's the one since the beginning of our relationship.. nt really the beginning of coz.. but once our relationship stabled, i've made my mind abt having him as the ONE in my life till the end.. yapz
however, sumtimes i really wonder.. am i sure he's the one? although i'm sure lah.. but.. i still question myself.. lol.. n i also will ask.. wat happens if i meet someone else better? better in his own ways n attractive in his own tt's diff frm johnny's.. wat will i do? den i also ask myself.. wat happens if after johnny finishes his ns, starts studying again.. den found a better ger.. much better than me.. prettier.. smarter.. more compatible.. will he dump me for her?? lol.. i kne i'm jus being silly lah.. but.. although the final answer will be.. no, it wont happen.. coz we jus cant let go of each other.. we're jus too impt to each other le.. there's no way we can let go.. lol..
oh.. i jus remember sumting miao told me last night when i was on msn wif her.. she said that she very pei fu wo.. coz i'm so commited to him.. lol.. am i? hm.. mayb i am.. lol.. i dunno.. am i? lol.. i guess it's coz i dun hav much ting to do nw but to tink abt him n miss him.. tt's wat alvin said.. lol.. coz i dun hav other tings to do, i spend my time tinking abt him.. i tink so.. lol.. but definitely.. even if i'm very busy with every other ting, i'll still miss him.. lol.. i tink it's jus coz i'm too.. lonely in the heart.. i'm nt alone i kne.. but sumtimes.. i jus feel lonely without him..
hm.. i dunno wat to say le.. lol.. i better go continue reading the advance theory of driving.. my test will be on thursday.. i better nt fail it.. =p
buaiz
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Sunday, October 23, 2005
well, i jus finished my blog hopping today.. erm.. yapz.. two blogs i read had the same topic.. lol.. it's army.. by homan n gerald.. yapz..
tinking abt it.. seems like most of the guys i kne are in army nw.. except wenda n alvin of coz.. yapz.. everyone's so busy wif army.. training n all tt shit.. haiz.. yapz.. although i cant experience wat the guys are going thru physically, but i can kinda imagine abt it mentally.. coz.. mayb it's jus coz johnny tells me abt his days in camp.. wat he experience tt day.. yapz.. i get "reports" of his daily ns life..
regarding gerald's post.. yarlor.. sumtimes i tink the sergeants are mad lah.. lol.. as in.. yapz.. they really scold for nothing.. the life of a man depends so much on how his "heads'" moods are.. like.. omg.. the sergeants can make them do tough n stupid tings jus to make themselves feel better.. if their mood was bad.. then the man will suffer.. quite dumb i tink.. den if their mood was good, they can play wif u n be crazy.. wat sia.. sumtimes i really tink tt they're jus playing n enjoying the authority they hold..
regarding homan's post.. burnt weekends.. yarlor.. dumb.. everytime weekends get burnt for stupid tings.. life firing.. or watever.. y cant they jus plan the trainings to weekdays.. muz weekend meh?? summore.. even they do giv nights out.. it's so little.. wat sia.. each time i go out wif him on nights out.. we hav less than 2 hours.. wat sia.. it's a whole lot different frm the weekends lor.. half days are like so once in a blue moon kinda ting.. i tink he onli got 1 half day so far.. i tink.. lol.. aniway.. it's so dumb lah.. dunno how many weekends burnt n they "pay back" with jus a few nights out.. i seriously dun like it..
sumtimes i really tink abt it.. if ns so impt?? as in.. okay.. i dunno wat the rest of u learn during training.. but all the bcct, icct.. all the firings n stuffs.. seriously sumtimes i tink it's jus like playing real-life games.. raelly lor.. nw, johnny jus completed his icct course.. yar... he demo a little for me ytd, on me.. n it's like.. realy like game lor.. omg.. so brutal.. break ur bones n everything. although it's real good defence.. but.. wat sia.. train this kinda ting.. try it on ur partners... wat the.. wat if u really break their bones.. siao.. u get slammed like dunno how many times.. stupid.. i got slammed by him during his demo.. although he was real gentle.. but it still hurt lor.. i cant imagine them doing it wif a little more force on their peers.. omg...
army army army.. seriously.. i really thought the army will let boys become man.. but sumtimes when i tink abt it.. recalling back to wat i hear frm the calls i hav wif johnny.. n wat the guys are doing at the background.. it's real.. dumb.. seriously, how to become man like tt sia.. it's jus like kids playing leh.. making a whole lot of noise for nothing.. real kiddo... omg.. n did i mention it b4?? they go out to relieve themselves so often.. u kne wat i mean by relieve?? they seriously pay for sex lor.. cant believe it.. i really cant lor.. omg.. summore johnny even told me there's one of them who can get his girl.. eh, the one whom he initally was supposed to pay for the business.. she actually payed for his expenses in the end.. wat the hell rite.. omg.. where got such thing de.. i really wonder how he did it.. cant believe wat i hear abt his mates there..
nw tt johnny's in army n everyone else is.. i really wonder y i had the thinking tt army is good for guys.. was i mad?? i tink i was.. coz i didnt understnad wat they'll be going thru during this 2 years.. i guess so.. however i jus hav to admit that the onli good thing tat's done to the guys is that they really become much fitter.. yapz.. realy.. n thinner.. yapz
dunno wat to say le.. me go help my mum wif housework.. she's making so much noise nw.. buaiz..
all the best to my frenz in army.. jia you.. =p
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Monday, October 17, 2005
hehe, i kne i kinda neglected tis blog for abt a week... hehe.. sorry.. =p
hm.. okie.. updates.. haha.. last week.. i got to kne a young boy thru mapling.. lol.. i say he's young coz he's onli 14.. means onli sec 2.. haha.. funny rite.. =p maple also can make frenz.. yapz.. =p
erm.. i met up wif him n his frenz on thursday to help them tution.. haha.. coz they got maths paper 2 on friday.. yapz.. hehe.. i muz say.. lol.. he's a very cute boy.. haha.. mayb coz he's young.. haha.. so he's cuteness is diff.. erm.. he's also very frenly.. haha.. yar.. den.. erm.. yarlor.. like tt lor.. den coz of him n his other fren.. eh, actually i kne him wif his other fren together.. yapz.. den coz of them.. i got to kne a few other maplers frm his class.. lol.. power ba.. haha.. erm.. let me see.. haha.. i name them out ba.. okie.. the cute boy i'm talking abt is bryan.. his other fren is justin.. yapz.. den the others are nick, weixiang, wee kiat.. eh.. i tink is like tt le lor.. =p yar.. hehe.. quite funny lah.. haha.. i'm like a big sister.. lol
oh.. i might be bryan's maths tutor nx year.. nt sure yet lah.. lol.. depends whether he hires me or nt... lol.. yapz
erm.. den on saturday, i went to downtown east... for my bro's gf's bbq.. yapz.. mum helped to book the chalet.. frm friday to monday.. yapz.. i brought johnny along.. haha.. yar.. cute.. =p den.. yarlor.. oh.. haha.. my bro's gf's frenz say tt johnny is handsome.. lol.. nt they say themselves de lah.. but is my bro's gf ask them if he's handsome or nt.. den they say yes.. lol.. funny rite.. hahahaha.. =p actually i'm quite proud to hear others saying tt my bf is handsome.. lol.. although i always ask him "u very handsome meh??".. haha.. but i kne he is attractive in his own way.. haha.. okie.. =p i beta nt continue on tis.. hahahah
hm.. okie.. nw.. eh.. he's back in camp.. lol... yar.. will onli book out 2 weeks later.. so.. hm.. yapz.. i wont hav much time wif him.. yarlor.. quite sad.. but... i guess live still has to go on.. lol.. hm.. i've got my final theory test on nx thursday.. yapz.. but the bad ting is tt i haven started revising.. lol.. i knw nuts abt final theory.. hahaha.. i better start reading thru it liaoz.. =p
okie lah.. i shd go slp le.. yarlor. i'm kinda falling sick le.. yapz.. summore the weather so cooling.. i shd rest also.. =p
buaiz..
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Monday, October 10, 2005
haiz.. tml, he'll be going on outfield again.. which means i'll have 3 days tt i wont be hearing his voice.. okay lah.. mayb 2 n half days.. but.. i dun like it..
den jus nw on the phone, he n his bunk mates were discussing abt down grading together.. omg.. i was like "wo bu yao wo bu yao wo bu yao" (endlessloop)... den he was like reasoning wif me.. saying if down grade den will hav more time wif me.. at least will be able to talk on the phone daily.. den even will hav chance to come over my place for dinner most of the time.. i kne it shd sound great to me.. but.. i seriously still dun wan him to downgrade.. it seems like it's jus losers who down grade to avoid training n stuffs.. n i dun like it.. u get wat i mean.. i dun wan him to be running away of the training n stuffs.. he was the one who's serving ns.. so he shd complete it.. y muz run.. haiz.. i jus dun like it..
but.. he also told be tt if dun down grade.. he'll hav to go for overseas training during end of nov.. which means tt we'll hav a month nt being able to see each other.. omg.. if tt's really it.. i'll die sia.. but.. haiz.. i dunno lah.. i'm very confused.. it's a real dilema in my brain nw.. =(
HELP... argh.. y cant saf jus return him to me den i wont hav to bother abt so much le.. haiz.. still got 1yr n 4mths to go.. haiz.. i dunno how to endure..
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Wednesday, October 05, 2005
hello.. =)
haha.. long time no see... hm.. nt very long lah.. hahaha.. hm.. dunnoe.. i'm quite bored.. yapz.. been doing nothing tis days.. as usual lah.. erm.. nt really nothing lah.. been doing sum web research.. nt really research.. but i've been going ard webbys to see n read abt being a christian.. lol.. yapz.. i'm actually doing it.. haha... reading up sum stuffs lah.. like the basic teachings.. n stuffs...
okay.. i hav to say.. i'm still a free thinker nw.. really am.. but.. i guess i'll be converted sooner or later.. coz.. yapz.. coz of johnny lah.. n erm.. i guess.. i've kinda decided nt to sit on the fench animore.. mayb.. coz.. i dunno.. it's nt i dont believe tat there are other gods in heaven watching over us.. but.. mayb i've kinda decided to be a child of god?? haha.. mayb.. =p
sumting i read in the webbys lah.. also quoted frm the bible.. Matthew 12:30 "He who is not with me is against me".. so i guess.. erm.. i dont wanna be against him.. so i'll be with him.. ahhaha.. nvm wat i'm saying.. lol..
aniway.. the onli few things i've done tis few days nt including housework.. will jus be mapling, watching tv n reading the bible.. haha.. yapz.. tt's all i guess.. lol.. when i told johnny wat i've been doing, he says tt it wont help much for me to search online.. coz.. he said i'd be better if he teaches me himself.. coz i wont understand wat it's all abt without him explaining it to me.. coz he says he knows how to get the point over to me.. coz he knows me best.. n coz him his laopo.. =p
hehe.. nvm.. i tink me gonna go read summore liaoz.. haha.. dun tink i'm crazy.. i'm nt... =p
buaiz
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Tuesday, October 04, 2005
haha.. rmb me saying abt the name i saw in his account book ytd?? lol.. erm.. i ask him abt it today.. haha.. actually i didnt really wanna ask de.. but i kne.. lol.. i can't hide anithing frm him.. it's jus.. i'll jus like.. erm.. say things which acted as little hits to him n he knes tat there's sumting i'm wanting to ask him n something tt he wants to kne.. lol..
so.. after much.. erm.. dunno how to say.. lol.. i was 'forced' so say it out.. lol.. in the end, i got to kne both his ex's names.. hehe.. power ba.. =p i knew he'll tell me.. haha.. coz.. we're too good at threatening each other.. hahaha.. coz he threatened me to tell him wat i wanted to ask.. den i threatened him to tell me wat their names were after i asked him.. hahah.. we're jus 2 idiots.. haha.. =p
okie.. his first gf's name is melissa.. n the second one is deviana.. haha... hm.. seriously.. i was like.. erm.. hahaha.. an idiot lah.. haha.. n i said tt he was being unfair.. coz he's biased towards his exs coz his book is full of their names.. haha.. den he said.. he's nt.. coz my name is all over his books as well.. n it's all over his army note book which is with him all the time.. so i'm like.. sweet~... lol.. it's quite nice.. or i shd say.. very nice to kne tt he's missing me so badly tt he's written my name all over his note book.. hehe.. i didnt kne he's a guy who does such a thing.. hehe.. sweet rite.. haha.. as in to write down the persons name whom he's tinking abt.. haha.. i thought onli stupid gers like me will do such dumb things.. haha.. =p
i'm quite happy at this moment.. hehe.. coz.. although i'm missing him very madly.. he's feeling the same.. n we're doing tings tt each other doesnt kne.. haha.. as in the ways we miss each other.. it's so nice.. heheh. =p
bauiz
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Monday, October 03, 2005
yeah.. i finished reading harry potter n the half blood prince on sat.. n nw.. eh.. nothing to read.. lol.. quite bored lor.. yapz.. esp when johnny's back in camp again.. haiz.. i dun like it.. i hate it when he's back in camp.. coz being in camp means he's nt wif me.. =(
hm.. i kne.. i shdnt be like too dependant on him.. but.. i dunno wat to say.. i've already been so used to having him wif me n it's really hard for me to hav days without him by my side.. nvm.. i shdnt start on tis topic animore.. coz anione who's reading tis blog of mine will be too bored wif tis topic i always talk abt..
okay.. oh guys.. btw, on 20 nov 2005, there'll be a NIE Symphonic Band concert at singapore conference hall.. i really hope u frenz out there will be able to go support me.. hehe.. coz i'll be playing and siyi will also be part of it.. =) of coz, it's nt free.. haha.. but it's still quite cheap lah.. $10 per ticket.. it's on a sunday n starts at 5pm... yapz.. i really hope u pple will go.. anione interested, pls contact me k.. n my hp number nv change.. lol.. =)
there'll be nice songs played.. yapz.. i seriously like them lah.. but.. tough.. lol.. i mean. it's like running notes.. n it gets us all high when we play.. lol.. mayb it's jus my own feeling.. haha.. but i tink it's definitely worth it to go.. yapz.. coz i've always been to NIESB concerts.. it's an annual event.. n it's 30years anniversary tis year.. so it's kinda like.. erm.. the 'theme' says it's 30 years of music making.. yapz.. pple, it's worth it.. trust me.. lol.. =p
hm.. oh.. btw, i've jus taken up the post of web master of the official niesb webby.. but.. lol.. i haven started anithing yet lah.. i dun even hav the password yet.. lol.. summore.. hm.. i'm nt sure if i can get it done.. lol.. coz i'm totally new to web management n design.. hahaha.. so i tink i might jus screw the ting up.. but who cares.. no one voluteered.. so.. eh.. i jus wanted to try out lah.. yapz..
ah.. n i also took johnny's principle of accounts book back to learn.. yapz.. jus got it today.. n it seems so totally hard to learn wif jus a book n no one to expain.. hm.. but.. nvm.. lol.. summore.. the book is full of drawings n everything done by him.. lol.. lots of stuff.. n.. i tink i saw his ex's name written in the book.. i nv ask him if tt's it, as in tt's his ex's name... coz.. eh.. ahaha.. didnt wanna get myself mad n boiling abt it if it really is.. =p
i kne i've definitely accepted the things between him n his ex.. but.. hm.. i cant be like nt accepting it aniway.. i didnt hav a choice.. haha.. but.. i dunno.. lol.. i get very jealous when it comes to his ex.. n he knows it.. i also dunno y i'm like tt.. but.. i dunno.. i'll get very agitated whenever the topic abt him n his ex comes up to my mind.. lol.. i tink i'm crazy.. but i really cant do anithing abt it.. i really get very jealous over wat's over.. it's like i hav "shen chou da hen" wif her.. u get wat i mean?? lol.. nvm.. hahahahahaha
i tink i'm jus crazy n too madly in love wif him lah.. i tink i'm getting more n more possessive over him.. really.. sumtimes.. i tink i really very bad.. snatching frm his parents their precious elder son.. wanting all the time he has out of camp by myself.. but.. dunno wat to say.. lol.. it's jus making me feel really uncomfortable whenever he's out frm camp but nt wif me.. really.. i feel very.. erm.. unsecure?? mayb.. haha.. dunno lah.. hahaha..
i tink i siao le..
buaiz
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