Sunday, September 25, 2005
yeah.. i finally got a copy of harry potter.. hehehe... lol
of coz.. i didnt buy it.. dun hav the money to aniway.. yarlor.. i'm totally broke le.. seriously broke.. haiz.. i wanna get a job man.. lol...
back to harry potter.. i borrowed it frm the library.. dun get me wrong.. it's nt on the shelves.. i got it coz i reserved it.. which means.. it's finally my turn nw tt the others before me who reserved it as well has finished reading.. =p
hm.. seriously, i forgot the previous books liaoz.. as in.. i dun rmb the storyline of the previous books.. so it's like i was a bit blur when i started reading.. was like tinking.. was happened in the previous book.. lol
aniway.. i'm reading real so today.. coz i'm kinda tired.. yar.. so.. hm.. mayb i might nt even complete the first chapter tonite.. lol..
buaiz.. =p
blue @ 11:23 PM
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Friday, September 23, 2005
yeah!! heheh.. i've finally got a panlid again.. but i spent like hundreds of thousands of mesos to buy de.. haiz.. nvm ba.. =p
coz of my foolishness n coz i'm jus the kind of person who'll believe anione person easily.. i've gotta pay my price for it lor.. yapz.. nw.. i'm totally broke in maple.. really broke for a lvl 34 mage lor.. lol.. but.. nvm.. at least i got my panlid.. n.. i'll jus hav to train more n fight more to get more mesos lor.. tt's it.. =)
hm.. i'm real tired nw.. lol... coz i went shopping wif mum tis afternoon.. went to og at chinatown.. shopped for quite sum time.. hehe.. n i got a new swimsuit.. hehe.. finally i can go swiming in a more comfortable swimsuit le.. coz the old one.. a bit too short le.. den my body so long.. getting into it is so nt nice.. hehe.. n tis new one.. hm.. nice.. =p it's.. erm.. alittle revealing lah.. hahaha.. but nt too much.. coz muz cover de parts all got cover.. of coz lah.. lol.. hm.. how to describe.. ah.. it reveals a lot of my back.. lower back.. yapz. =) n i also bought a new surfers shorts.. hehe.. tt's all i bought.. lol.. n mum bought 2 t-shirts n a OTO product.. lol.. for her to slim down.. lol.. hm.. seriously.. i dun tink anithing will really help to slim her down.. coz she spends most of her time sitting at work.. den also nv exercise.. den.. lol.. hm.. nvm.. hahahah
i dun say le.. wanna slp le... i miss him so much. although he'll be out tml... haiz.. i stil hafta go to band.. so.. i guess it's like tt lor.. there's nothing much i can do.. yapz..
buaiz
blue @ 12:33 AM
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Thursday, September 22, 2005
i tink i really got nothing beta to do.. lol.. till nw.. i'm still trying very hard to fight n get the 900k mesos so i can buy a panlid for myself.. lol.. power ba.. i'll hav to fight like crazy..
n till nw... i haven even got 800k.. i'm so tired n almost dying le.. lol.. i'm nuts rite.. for a panlid.. i'm spending so much time n effort.. lol.. sianz..
aniway.. after i get the panlid.. i'll be like 0mesos left.. sad case.. lol
nvm ba. lol
blue @ 3:22 AM
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i've finally gotten over my foolishness.. nw.. i'm all ready to fight n play maple again... lol.. coz.. i've finally got someone nice to reserve a panlid for me.. definitely, it's nt free.. lol.. i'm gonna buy it for 900k.. yapz.. crazy me rite.. lol.. but i guess it's okay.. coz.. erm.. def 11 panlid is always more ex.. lol..
so nw.. i'm like trying my very best to earn tt much mesos to buy it frm him on sat.. yapz.. he/she promised to reserve it for me till den.. =)
i'll stop talking nw.. going back to earn money le..
buaiz
blue @ 12:22 AM
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Tuesday, September 20, 2005
today, i'm the dumbest person in the world.. seriously.. i'm stupid 2 times today... not onli stupid.. is totally dumb n idiotic.. haiz..
let's start frm tis morning.. i forgot the day of my basic theory test.. i remember the date.. dumb rite.. i thought today is 21st.. haiz.. den made johnny n me rush like dunno wat.. made myself hav to wake up to early.. but luckily he was with me all along.. or else. i'll really scold n luff at myself..
den. okie.. this isnt sumting so stupid.. so it's nt the 2nd stupid ting.. tis is jus.. eh.. sumting tt happened lah.. okie.. i kinda regret cutting my hair today.. coz i dun tink i look good at all although johnny says it's nt bad.. it's nt totally short.. but.. still very much shorter than anithing i had before i cut it.. it's so damn layered nw.. den u kne, when my hair is short.. it curls... natural curl tt i dun like.. nvm.. cut den cut le.. will jus hav to let it grow again.. haiz..
nw the 2nd stupid ting i did.. and tis is the thing tt's spoiled my day.. i'm so totally depressed n sad.. n seriously angry abt myself.. i'm jus so dumb.. i got cheated off my panlid.. yar.. the def 11 de.. the one tt i spent so much time trying to get.. i'm so so stupid.. sum idiot asked me to drop n smile.. den he took it away.. n i was so stupid to believe him.. i'm really dumb. argh.. i really feel like killing myself.. the dumbest person in the whole wide world.. i'm so so so sad.. really very sad.. coz i'm so very stupid by loosing my panlid like tt.. i'm jus so dumb.. can sumone kill me pls.. i'm really stupid sia.. argh.. haiz..
forget it.. if i get too depresses abt tis, johnny will really worry.. fine.. i hope i'll be okay by tml.. although i kne i wont.. nvm
blue @ 9:07 PM
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Saturday, September 17, 2005
today, i went for an interview.. as starhub sales executive.. yapz.. it went okay i guess.. lol.. but i'm nt extremely keen abt getting tis job.. lol.. yar..
erm.. i met up wif johnny at bugis today.. he wanted to go there.. dunno for wat.. lol.. coz he said he's too stressed up n too depressed n tired after the field camp.. yar.. so he wanted to go see toys.. lol.. to destress a little.. lol.. but.. one bad ting lah.. he's having stomach cramp.. er.. tt's wat he said.. yar.. nt the toilet kind.. den he was like tahaning... lol.. cute rite.. haiz..
in the end.. we didnt do much there lah.. jus walk awhile den i insisted tat we go home to rest.. so yar.. he came over to my place.. slept for awhile.. ate sum medicine.. n i cooked dinner for him.. hehe.. it's jus porriage lah.. but.. =p i cooked it wif my heart.. lol.. hehe..
nw.. he's home already.. or i shd say.. he reached home quite long ago lah.. showered n nw he's having a family meeting.. the usual weekly meeting.. hm.. it's abt an hour n a half liaoz.. i'm still waiting for him lor.. hahaha.. i'm used to waiting liaoz lah. he's like tt de.. n his family meeting usually lasts tis long.. at least an hour.. i'm tinking mayb today's will be 2 hours.. =p
okie.. me nw mapling again.. as usual lah.. yapz..
oh.. tml got performance at woodlands.. anione interested to go.. lol.. it's NIE SB's performance.. we're gonna play.. erm.. abt 10 pieces i tink.. yar... hehe.. i nv count lah.. yar.. erm.. there'll also be a annual concert on 20 nov.. =p u kne wat i mean lah.. hehehe.. will keep u all updated so u all can go support me.. heheeh..
kk lah.. i go continue le..
buaiz
blue @ 11:24 PM
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Thursday, September 15, 2005
okay.. let's see.. we'll start frm the 'war' i had wif alvin last nite, den continue on the other 'topics'...
rite.. erm... money.. okay.. that's the main problem i guess.. lol.. i dunno how to write.. hm...
money money money.. okay. i kne me n johnny stil owe $50 capital to our company.. which means tt's $100 in total.. n alvin is rushing us for the money... okay.. i still hav to put tis right.. the both of us are n spending lots n lots of money to enjoy ourselves n delay the paying time... it's jus.. we do spend money on ourselves when we go out.. once in awhile, we'll indulge in good food.. however.. no one sees the problems under the table..
i might be saying how much i enjoy myself wif him when we went out for dinner eat time.. mayim, sakae, seoul, fish n co.. bleh bleh.. i kne.. but.. we dont eat tt everyday do we?? no.. n it's like once in a blue moon nw.. coz.. the first ting, we dont hav such time together.. second, we dont hav the money.. each time when we decides to eat better food, it's either he's jus gotten his pay.. or it's tt he's suffered too much in camp n wants to hav sumting good.. he complains all the time to me abt how torturing it is to be in army n how much he wants to down grade so he could suffer less physically.. the onli ting i can do is to bring him to indulge in good food to let him forget his sufferings..
seriously, i'm glad already to be by his side n be the one he's spending money on n with.. coz.. frm wat i kne.. he's already the better ones frm his company.. tt is.. tat bunch of idiots he's wif goes to those places to relieve themselves.. if u understand wat i mean.. tat is they sumtimes, or occasionally goes to places and spend their money by paying for s*x.. u get wat i mean?? at least he doesnt go.. n i seriously will kill him if he goes outside to find others girls to do it wif.. i believe tat spending time wif me will be a better choice.. seriously.. u wont kne how mad his bunch of "frenz" can be.. n pls.. dun tell him i told u pple tis.. i dont tink he'll mind tt much but.. i rather nt let him kne.. so.. shh...
hm.. okay.. let's get back to how we spend our money.. let's see.. okay.. in the past few months.. he's got chances to hav nights out.. so i went to find him.. coz.. he wont hav sufficient time to get back to camp if it was him who came to fine me.. n the onli ting we could do together was to eat.. wat else can we do? movies was out coz he doesnt hav enuff time.. n he wants to be in aircon.. so.. yarlor...
seriously.. the way we spend our money togther.. it's real hard for us to save up.. we're supposed to start saving up for our future together since like june.. but.. neither of us hav money to save up.. so.. yar.. u get wat i mean.. it's really nt tt we dont wanna pay up... but u seriously cant force us to pay u back nw n expect us to live on nothing else.. u get wat i mean??
n like i said.. i'll still love him as much even if we're both broke n without a single cent.. but let me ask u.. will we or can we survive without money.. i dont tink so.. yar, i muz admit.. mayb i've been living a good life n hav sufficient money to get watever i wanted in the past.. so i want the same lifestyle nw.. yar.. i might be still living in the past n doesnt wanna come back to reality.. but.. i dunno.. it's hard.. nt tt i haven tried.. money.. sianz.. the onli way i can get it is to get a job.. but do u ever realise how hard it is to get one decent job nw.. haiz.. den one other thing abt it is that i kinda hav to work 5days n hav my weekends free if i wanna hav time wif him.. or else.. he'll complain.. he'll say tt i dont hav time for him coz of my work.. n i seriously hate tt feeling esp when i've experienced it when i was doing my previous job..
haiz.. dunno wat to say le.. i'm like nagging n trying so hard to protect myself n prove tt i'm nt wrong in the entire essay able.. watever.. lol..
fine.. i'm very defensive n can find loads of crap n excuses to prove tt i'm right.. fine..
lol
blue @ 1:53 PM
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Wednesday, September 14, 2005
oh.. pay back $$.. fine.. like we wanna owe u pple money.. the ting is, hav we got the chance to meet up to pay $$.. fine.. jus say how much we OWE.. and seriously, i dun remember how much money we asked u all to pay for us.. okay.. i'll pay back.. fine...
and the ting is, i haven watch A SINGLE freaking movie in like months.. I HAVE NOT WATCHED ANY MOVIE WITH HIM.. okay.. n it's like we haven been eating GOOD FOOD.. it's jus coz he wanted to eat.. so i say okay, let's go.. since we haven had good food in like quite sumtime.. and we seriously need time together.. where else u tink we CAN go.. food court n kopitiam izzit..
n if u really like to kne how much money we're trying to survive on esp when i cant seem to find a job... u'll be shock.. okay.. he onli gets 350 a month.. n i get nothing.. i'm surviving on my left money saved up frm the previous job.. n he's like surviving on his 350.. he gives money to the church each month, to his parents.. wat else he has left.. freaking.. how do u expect us to go dating wif such little money.. fine.. tell us not to date... or dont u tink breaking up if a better choice.. like tt no need to spend money on each other.. rite..
argh.. watever...
state how much we owe.. i'll pay back as soon as we meet the nx time.. FINE.. as though we're like eating ur money n dun wanna pay back.. watever.. fine.. fine.. FINE..............................................
i'll jus declare bankrupt after tt..
den i'll stay at home n nv dine out..
jus stay at home n so i wont need to spend a single cent..
ask him to come over if he wants to hav meals wif me..
say i'm an idiot.. i'm totally fucked up.. watever..
kill me if u want.. i'm jus a sucker n hates it when i hav to deal wif money esp when i'm already broke..
wanna kne y we asked u all out to dine tt day.. coz he jus finally got his damn pay n u wanted to talk business.. we thought y nt jus meet up, talk n enjoy a little when he still hav the little money left before it's all used up on transport and rubbish..
blue @ 11:35 PM
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dunno wat to say..
i'm missing him very badly nw.. cant hear his voice tonite.. haiz.. help.. i really miss him..
blue @ 8:37 PM
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haiz.. today, my darling book in again.. so sadz.. i wan him.. =(
u muz be asking.. today tuesday le.. y today den book in?? nt really today DEN book in.. he booked in on sunday le.. but booked out on monday.. coz tuesday is bridget's day.. so.. yar.. he early in the morning went to orchard for tresure hunt.. lol.. den abt 10am went to cine to watch cave.. lol.. dumb rite.. den all muz wear red red.. haha.. yar..
i went to cine to meet him.. den saw a huge... i really mean HUGE group of guys in red.. haha.. as in.. the hang ten tee tat they hav.. all wear the same shirt.. so so cute.. haha.. =p but it's real hard to spot him.. but luckily he spotted me first instead.. yapz.. den we went to take train to suntec.. walked ard.. bought a gundam wing figure.. the small version.. hehe.. n i've fixed it already.. =p actually i'm supposed to fix it wif him.. but i couldnt hold the temptation.. so i did it myself.. hehe.. nt bad actually.. =p den he also got me a soft-toy.. it's baby minnie.. yapz. hehe.. it's the 13th soft-toy he bought me.. yapz.. den.. we also had sakae sushi buffet for lunch..
hm.. dunno wat to say.. i'm jus missing him very much.. den for 2 full days.. or mayb even 3.. i wont be hearing his voice.. coz he'll be going outfield again.. hope everything will be find for him.. n all he says each time is tat i pray hard for him.. okie.. i do pray very hard for him everyday.. haha.. yapz..
aniway.. i'm going to continue playing maple le.. coz i'm supposed, nt really lah.. but i wanna help him chiong for a wizard wand.. so.. yapz.. quite hard to get.. but.. i'll try my best.. yapz..
buaiz..
blue @ 12:21 AM
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Friday, September 09, 2005
haiz.. y muz i go for band practice all the time.. can't i jus nt go for once?? haiz.. johnny's complaining tat he wants to see me on fridays.. on his book out days.. but.. i have to go for band.. argh..
y hav i joined it in the first place.. if it wasnt for my dad.. i wont hav gone in.. haiz.. did i say tt i'd be going to china n hongkong tis december for performance wif the band?? nw my dad's nt going.. coz he's going to taiwan wif my mum.. den wat u expect me to do? go overseas alone wif the band? i dont tink so.. it's nt tt i cant live without my parents.. it's jus.. i don't wanna be overseas wif a bunch of pple i'm nt close or familiar wif.. even siyi isnt going.. y shd i go..
haiz.. jus y cant anione understand my relationship wif johnny.. can't anione tell tt's he's really impt to me?? can't anione realise how much i can't live without him n how much i wanna spend my time wif him?? y can't my dad jus realise how much i wanna go out with him tml after he books out.. y cant he jus let me skip practice for once to go out wif him.. i wanna go out wif him so badly.. cant anione understand how much i miss him...
i guess no one will understand.. n who will wanna understand?? it's totally none of their business.. rite.. argh.. yar yar.. no understand folks ard i guess.. sucks.. wat ever.. hate it... no one understands me.. shit man.. no one especially my family members.. argh.. wat ever..
forget it.. damn.. i seriously feel like jumping of my house now.. sure will die de.. 14th storey.. wont die.. den i'll jus let cars knock me down.. den sure die.. dun worry.. i wont commit suicide lah.. i'm nt as dumb as to commit suicide jus like tt.. wat for.. i hav a future waiting for me.. i hav my own future.. a future wif my love... watever.. lol
haiz.. dunno what's up my mine.. ignore me ba...
nitez
blue @ 1:54 AM
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Wednesday, September 07, 2005
bored bored bored..
i haven heard his voice for 2 days le.. i kne to u pple reading, tat 2 days is nothing.. onli 2 days nv hear his voice, wat's there to make so much noise abt.. but... i miss him alot.. and without hearing his voice each day.. i tend to worry abt whether he's fine at camp or not... haiz. n my day doesnt seem complete without his "nitez darling, i love u.. slp early.. muacks"
u get wat i mean.. haiz.. dunno lah.. sianz.. me hav been playing maple, watching tv n reading the whole day.. i completed my book already.. which means i hav nothing left to read.. so.. i can onli play or watch tv.. den the bad ting is maple dunno why lag like hell after a patch tis afternoon.. so.. playing is tough.. although i've still spent hours playing.. den tv.. nothing nice to watch at tis time..
haiz.. i'm damn sianz.. i miss him so badly.. n i'm nt tired to go to slp yet.. wat to do sia.. haiz.. shd i jus go dig sum books that i hav n start reading again?? i dunno.. mayb i shd.. hm.. yar.. i tink i shd... dunno y, i seriously like reading nw.. hm.. oh.. anione out there has harry potter and the half blood price n is willing to lend it to me.. i'm seriously wanting to read it.. yes.. i like harry potter.. so if anione can lend it to me.. i'll be damn happy...
hehe.. okie.. i tink i go continue mapling le.. yapz..
buaiz
blue @ 11:44 PM
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Monday, September 05, 2005
haha.. sorry folks.. hehe.. haven blogged for sumtime already..
it's nt like wat alvin's thinking.. i'm nt doing anithing for him.. haha.. it's jus i'm busy slacking ard n playing maple.. tt's all.. and coz he's also been staying at my place couple of days during his offs.. so.. i didnt had the chance. ehhe..
okay.. time to get u pple updated with my life.. haha.. talk abt work first.. i'm nt working yet.. slacking ard.. nt really lah.. actually went for interview b4 september started.. but got rejected.. so i'm looking for other jobs nw.. den studys.. i'm also nt studying as u pple shd kne.. i'm also currently looking for courses to take.. but.. nt sure wat to go for.. n i dont hav much money left for too expensive courses...
so basically.. i'm slacking at home.. busy doing household chores n stuff.. playing maple n watching tv.. okie.. i do read books too.. but johnny always says that the books i read as mind polluting.. lol.. it's jus fiction books i borrowed frm the library.. n most of them are romance.. which guys usually dun like reading.. lol...
okie.. yes.. like i've said earlier.. he's been staying at my place during his offs.. last monday to wednesday, he's here... erm.. dun remember when else he came.. but quite a couple of times already.. n he slps wif me in my room.. lol.. i kne wat u're tinking.. no, we slp on different beds.. haha..
nw.. i'm jus busy trying to complete a book tat i jus borrowed and also lvl up my maple character.. both me n johnny's character are lvl 30 already.. however, since he's in camp, i also hav to help him train his mage so tat when he's back to play, our lvl isnt too far apart.. =)
haiz.. one bad ting.. i wont heard his voice tml, wed n thurs.. coz he'l be having outfield.. tt means.. i'll jus put all my time into playing n reading.. nothing else.. no need to wait for his call in the night before i go to slp.. nothing.. sianz. i bet i'm gonna miss him like crazy again.. although i'm already missing him..
nvm.. i guess i'm gonna play again..
buaiz
blue @ 5:32 PM
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