Thursday, April 26, 2007
today muz bring laptop to sch.. zzz.. coz muz install MS Project 2003 for my project management module.. so heavy..
actually i could hav gone home nw.. but.. haiz.. was supposed to meet up wif johnny, den nw he still haven msg me to tell me whether he is done or nt.. so most prob he is still busy.. most prob wif the kid's oral exam.. coz nw pri sch is having mid-year exams mah..
mid year.. omg.. it's like so long ago.. LOL.. nw is onli the second week of sch for me in poly.. so slack.. although coz is final year, got project to do.. but since we hav vj in the grp.. hee.. most probs are solved when he's ard.. heee..
aniway.. they guys are having lunch nw.. n i'm sitting here wif them to type tis entry.. i kne i'm bo liao.. but i'm nt hungry mah.. we ate jus abt 2.5 hrs ago.. we hav vj, deepan, jarrol n robin at the table, plus me of coz.. they're staying coz there's sports n wellness for the yr 1 n we're gonna go help coach wif it..
zzz.. i'm like so 'sexy' today.. wearing a spag top.. den the gers were like saying it's so revealing.. how to help out sia.. LOL.. i sure free show de.. LOL..
aniway.. i tink i better stop here.. coz the guys are almost done wif their food.. n i'll need time to shut tis laptop of mine off.. dunno y the starting up n the shutting down takes so long.. but nvm lah.. hee..
okie.. buaiz...
blue @ 2:59 PM
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Monday, April 23, 2007
2nd week of sch le.. zzz.. so tired.. everyday 8-5.. can die..
aniway, mon is same as wed, thurs n fri almost the same, tues is IS day.. zzz.. i tink onli mon n wed most slack.. coz is project day.. so most impt is jus project.. den the ting is coz jus start.. most tings tat we need to do is jus research.. so nw still quite okay..
zzz.. i'm really beri tired tis days.. dunno y.. i tink most prob is coz nt enuff slp.. coz nw weekends also cant slp late le.. long long time ago, when i was still single, sunday is a day to slp like a pig.. i'll onli wake up in the afternoon.. but nw.. every sunday muz wake up by 10am, den muz take bus/train to his place.. saturadays also like tat.. last time is slack at home, nw weekends is dating day.. lol.. it's nt tat i'm complaining.. i'm jus saying it's tiring lah.. although i really treasure the time i hav wif johnny..
zzz.. if onli i dun hav to study n he dun hav to work.. n the money will drop frm the sky.. LOL.. den can slack like hell.. den we also can spend all our time together n dun hav to bother abt daily necessities.. LOL.. wat a dumb tinking is tis.. LOL.. impossible..
aniway.. tml gotta got for a dumb kickoff ting after IS.. worst ting is it starts onli at 3 n my lesson ends at 12.. means got 3 hrs for lunch.. den after tat dunno how long the dumb ting will be.. zzz.. i wanna go out wif johnny.. LOL..
kk.. i shd stop crapping n go do more research for my OZONE ICE MAKING MACHINE liaoz.. lol.. btw, tat's my project topic.. zzz.. buaiz
blue @ 6:38 PM
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Tuesday, April 17, 2007
today is the second day of sch.. n it's been a real tiring day for me.. zzz.. i tink ytd was worst.. but coz of ytd, today is made more tired..
aniway, it's cca fiesta frm mon to wed.. which is actually ytd to tml.. one more day to go.. den can slack le.. zzz.. finally.. it's really really very tiring.. n i'm tinking it's nt onli coz of the fiesta.. but actually coz of the time my lessons start each day.. i hafta wake up at abt 5.45 every morning.. leave home abt 1 hr later.. an even when i leave home at 6.45, it doesnt ensure tat i reach sch on time.. since my lesson starts at 8am, i've gotta reach at least abt 10-15min earlier so i hav time to walk frm the bustop to my classroom of the day.. it's so tiring to climb the 'hill' everyday.. zzz..
aniway, today is IS day.. had understanding media n world issue.. both quite okay.. the lecturers nt really bad.. quite nice actually.. but the bad ting is still coz lessons start early, i cant keep myself awake.. zzz..
oh.. btw, my media lecturer talked a little abt the 'second life' ting to us in class n i'm kinda interested.. heee.. i tink me gonna make a research on it.. see how it's like.. sounds so much like a game to me.. =p
kk.. i go see see le.. aniway it's almost time for me to prepare for tml n to prepare to slp when johnny's done.. i'm so lack of slp, i'm dying..
blue @ 8:15 PM
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Thursday, April 12, 2007
i was slacking ard n suddenly i realised the significance of sumting tat johnny did ytd..
while i was buying the paint n brushes for the banner painting, he duplicated a set of his home keys for me.. suddenly, i realised wat it actually meant.. would u duplicate a set of ur house keys for ur gf if u didnt tink she's worth giving the keys to?
i'm sure giving home keys to gf/bf means diff things between diff couples.. but i suddenly realise wat it means for him to giv me his home keys.. he trusts me undoubtedly.. he knes tat i wont pop up at his place without him agreeing on it.. n it also means tat i mean more to him than i'm willing to convince myself of.. i'm so definitely he's nv given his house keys to any of his previous gfs..
so it actually makes me so much more special.. omg.. i'm so happy to come to tis realisation.. it's such a wonderful feeling to kne tat i mean so much to him.. =)
blue @ 1:18 AM
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Wednesday, April 11, 2007
i had a great time ytd n tis morning.. hee...
coz i actually had a very wonderful time alone wif johnny.. hee.. at his place.. =p
it's actually coz his parents n his bro went to malaysia for sum church tingy.. so we were able to spend time together at his place for a day.. his family will actually be back today.. only in the evening.. but i left long b4 tat time.. i left at abt noon.. coz i didnt hav ani sense of security being alone in his house.. LOL...
well, coz he had to go to sch today.. didnt hav a choice being a teacher.. cant skip sch like we used to whenever we want.. aniway, he had to go for the pri 5 adventure camp which starts today n ends on fri.. at sum safra which i kinda forgot where.. hee...
hm.. it's real weird slping at someone else's place.. LOL.. n it's the first time ever that i've slpt at his place overnight, coz the most is usually onli to hav a nap.. so funny.. hee.. although it always feels great to hav him by my side.. =p
haiz.. muz wait until fri/sat den will hav chance to see him again le.. so sianz.. i hope everything was in the correct order when i left his place.. coz since he wasnt ard to see than everything was right, i had to make sure they are when i left.. but i was like quite anxious to be out in case his parents pop back home b4 the time tat they said they would, den i'd be dead.. LOL..
aniway.. the membership cards for my committee is done.. i'm left wif those of the members to be done when i get the name list.. hope i can get it done soon..
zzz..
blue @ 9:35 PM
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Saturday, April 07, 2007
once again i'm in conflict wif my parents.. tis time my mum in particular.. argh.. it's all coz of a damn mahjong game..
i can't help it but i tink it's been right for me to nt hav played wif them for all tis time.. n tat it's my own mistake to join in the 'fun' tonite... argh.. i'm real pissed off.. zzz... i shd nv join into any damn family activity tat require me to sit by a table wif the rest.. nt including meal times of coz.. coz i wont be able to avoid meals wif them even if i had a choice..
aniway.. i wont go into details with watever happened to make me feel so horrible nw.. but to be real honest.. i feel like jus shutting myself out frm the rest of the world.. n lick my wounds alone.. i seriously feel that when such times arises.. i shd jus stay the fuck out of every activity tat's happening in the house..
i've cooled myself considerably after shutting out all sounds frm the house by listening to songs in my mp3.. i played them loud enuff to shut myself off for awhile.. but like every other day when mahjong is the main activity tat they hav.. my uncle n aunt are here.. so i cannot make myself angry wif them..
it's almost time johnny finishes his meeting n calls me.. it's his turn to fall sick nw.. n i'm quite worried coz he's been busy wif his sch work n doesnt seem to hav time to take good care of himself..
sumtimes, i really tink tat i'm a useless creature.. i dunno y my tears fall so easily these days either.. mayb it's coz i'm feeling worthless once again.. being dismissed n disregarded.. i get real sensitive over comments made abt me or even words said to me.. if i feel tat one is offending me in my own prospective, tears will wield up at the back of my eyes.. n i'll hav to push them back coz i nv ever show tears when i'm in company of anione..
mayb i'm jus nuts.. i'm once again sorry tat i write abt all the crap in my blog.. i'm feeling miserable at myself once again.. n i beg ur forgiveness for the trouble of asking u to read tis rubbish of my life..
blue @ 10:39 PM
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Wednesday, April 04, 2007
my flag football club logo.. designed by urs truly.. =p
blue @ 5:08 PM
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zzz.. one more week n sch starts once again..
i've been doing nothing this entire holiday.. except for being busy wif football stuffs for a week plus.. regina's CAD class for a week.. chalet for a week.. erm.. den i tink most of the time i've been slacking.. yar..
tinking back abt it.. the holiday doesnt seem as long aniway.. coz most of the time was spent on chinese new year.. wif all the visiting n stuff.. so basically the first week plus of the holiday is over..
zzz.. i've been trying to do the damn membership card for the club.. but it doesnt seem as easy as i've thought.. coz since it's a double sided tingy.. i had to try to align them like shit.. printed lots of unsucessful ones.. zzz.. they doesnt seem to wanna be aligned..
aniway.. i've kinda given up for today already.. coz my printer at home sucks aniway.. gonna get johnny to help me do the printing when he's free.. i've still got till nx thurs b4 it's due..
btw, wenda's 21st bday is coming.. i dunno where the guys wanna go celebrate.. it seems kinda hard to plan.. coz the guys said they'll onli be free on fri.. n since fri is a public holiday.. i dunno where they wanna go..
i'm still sick.. n i dunno wat's wrong.. cant seem to recover fast enuff.. zzz.. feel like dying.. LOL..
btw, would u guys wanna see the logo i designed for my club? well, it's basically approved by the rest of the committee members already.. n we're making com tees using the design i made as well.. hee.. kk.. i'll put the logo here for u guys to see.. giv me ur opinion.. it's basically edited frm the orginial nfl logo.. i kept the colours n the main shape of the logo..
kk.. i tink i'll stop making noise already.. LOL.. buaiz
blue @ 4:54 PM
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